For Sale...

We are putting the below dining table (6 seats) for sale. If you know any antique furniture lover who might be interested, left me a message, kay?

Price: RM500 nego. Shipping Method: Self-Pick. Condition: Good. Made: Kayu Jati. P.O.B: Kalimantan, Indonesia

Train Story

Since it's a wedding season and everybody from my age and younger are getting married, the subject of my marital status, popped up as the main topic of discussion again. Just when I think I'm off the hook, the wedding season is coming..siiiiiiigh.

My mum thinks I missed my train already. And I can't blame anyone but myself that I decided not to take the earlier train(s), given the fact that she's aware of a number of trains that had passed by. She knows that some had made the stop. She also knows that, not only I refused to get on those train(s), I would make myself as far as possible from any train station if I know the fact that the train(s) had made and will make the stop for me. Made myself unavailable..sort of. hahahah..

What can I do... At that time, the ones that stopped were LRT-type train, i.e. guys with 'ready to get married now' status But, I prefer, KTM Senandung Malam train instead, i.e. guys 'not ready to get married yet' status. So, I can't really blame myself of not ready to take the LRT train. They're just too fast for me that they scared the hell out of me. But now, it's a different story la kan..hehehe.. I would be crazy to still prefer KTM Senandung Malam.. hahahah..

p/s: It took me 8hrs to get to JB by train!!! Mmg giler!!! Tak taula bila Malaysia nak capai tahap ader keretapi laju ke negeri2 di Malaysia.. huhuhu

SAYA TAK BERANI

As open minded as I am. I'm totally in the 'No sex before marriage' team. Not even a person as hot as Brad Pitt can tempt or seduce me to cross over. perrrgh.. Easy for me to say la kan. Since nobody in that hotness level had ever tried on me any way.. hehehe..

There were people (mostly guys who want to get into my pants la kan..), who will debate about my choice about this matter. Their argument is that I won't do it (the sex before marriage) because of the religion. And, if I'm not Muslim, I would do it. See.. how guys can manipulate your mind and make you surrender? If they can't seduce you.. they will argue with you.. huhuhu.. What I can say.. it's not easy to resist temptations, I tell you.. But, there reasons why I still survive.. SO FAR.. hehehe..

Of course, the top reason of it is religion. I've done a lot of the 'small' sins (dosa kecik) myself, which if accumulate them all, can considered as 'big'..huhuhu.. So, I definitely don't want to touch the 'big' sins category. Apart of that, I always think of consequences in any of my actions. What good things I can get out of it? Thinking about it, I say, I would probably get nothing more than the pleasure of the moment. Whereas if I join the opposite team, I would put myself in jeopardy of degrading myself.. getting myself pregnant accidentally.. and in the most unlucky situation, I may get AIDS.. plus, if anything happenned, my parents, my family would get the shame.. Even if I put the religion factor aside, thinking of all the wrong possibilities that can happen, turn me off completely. Even the thickest condom in the world can't throw that thoughts away.

That's why, I don't understand why many young girls out there would dare to put themself in jeopardy of all that consequences.. Maybe they just being a total idiot or lust get the better of them. Who knows eh?

My bigger concern now however, not about the decreasing number of virgin girls (especially amongst Muslim/Malay girls). I don't think I care enough if they are virgin or not. They big enough to think what's right and what's wrong. Doing it (the sex), itself shows that they are already an adult. Although they might not have a brain like one.. But, I am concern about the increasing number of babies being thrown away to death. Really sad to watch the news and see all the horrifying pictures in the newspaper. How can a person do such cruel thing? What's the point of going through the 9 months pregnancy period, then 'murder' it? It just didn't make sense at all. Stupid right?

I understand, in this situation, we can get scared and panic. That would be what I'll feel. However, they would have more than sufficient time to really think about what they want to do. About the baby and themself. At least 7 months to really think and make a decision. Put you baby in rubbish dump or flush it in toilet should not be the options. Don't be afraid to go to the families/ parents. If not, they are organisations that can help and assist. Berani buat berani tanggungla kan..

KARMA

What goes around, comes around eh? I don't know if I really believe in Karma. But, sometimes, fate does happen in that way. Buat baik dibalas baik..buat jahat dibalas buruk, katanya..

I feel like I've been unkind to a lot of people (guys) in the past. Maybe unconciously done. I may have break the hearts of many. Some may be forgiven and let the past be bygones. But perhaps, they are a few who had cursed me and I'm not out of it yet. Like Mahsuri with her 'padang jarak padang terkukur selama 7 keturunan'.. huhuhu.. matila if I'm cursed until 7 keturunan..

I'm always been labelled by this lot of people as sombong, jual mahal, takde parasaan etc etc. I always like to deny it, because I think I am not. But, since lots of this words had been thrown to my face, I start to doubt myself. To my defense, sometimes, I'm cold towards certain guys because I don't want to hurt their feelings or give them false hope. In some cases, I did still hurt their feelings and sort of offended them. "Ala.. poyolah imah tu. Macamla aku nak kat dia sangat" attitude.

So, I was thinking.. maybe I repelled guys so much. Now, guys are repelling me?

My Top 10 Love/Romantic Movies

This post was meant for Valentine's Day theme..obviously I'm way behind schedule..hehehe.. Apparently, I have so much time thinking of the Top 10 list of my favourite Love/Romance/Chick Flick Movies when what I should be doing is.. list out my Top 10 potential Valentine date?

10. Titanic
This film is just a must have in anyone favourite love movies-Top 10 list regardless of whether they really like this movie or not. It's a typical "antara 2 darjat" love story really..Only that, Leonardo is still cute and you can see Kate Winslet naked (you can practically see her naked in most of her films anyway but still...with that huge blue diamond necklace, it's just soo different and special.. :p) However, I love tragic. Happily ever after love story is just lame and 'yucky' at times. So, watching a sad-ending movie once in awhile can be refreshing..



9. You've Got Mail
I love Meg Ryan!! She's definitely 1 of the queen of romantic movies of all time. Sleapless in Seattle, When Harry Met Sally, Addicted to Love, French Kiss.. I love them all!! It's just that I love this 1 more.. The cyber-virtual relationship thingy does it for me I guess..




8. Never Been Kissed
I read the novel first and loved it. I can relate to the story at that time with me never been kissed..waiting for the right guy..and the perfect kiss and all..hehehe.. When I got to know that a film was made based on this novel, I was so anxious to watch it. Since the movie is included in my Top 10 list, it means I love the movie too.



7. Hum Dil De Chuke Sanam
This is definitely my favourite Hindi movie. I love classic Indian settings. I like the chemistry between Salman and Aishu in the 1st part of the film.. Salman is in his goofy-foolish self who falls for a beautiful-naive Aishu. When you think that they will end up together until the end of the film, then bammm! Aishu is marrying Ajay Devgan plak. I set my mind to hate this Ajay character as the penyibuk in the story but nooo.. Sanjay Leela Bhansali chose to make his character as angelic as possible...go bring his wife Aishu all the way to Italy to unite her with her true love, katanya... but only for Aishu to really realise who her true love is at the end of the story.. I definitely had cried a river over this movie.. hehehe



6. Jerry Maguire
"You complete me"
When at almost an entire movie you think that this Jerry Maguire guy is a moron and a jerk.. he said this 3 lil words that practically change everything. Who won't fall for that huh? especially when a guy as cute and charming as Tom Cruise appear in your living room and confess that 3 magic words in front of your close friends and family?



5. He's Not That Into You
It's either Love Actually or this movie. I like this kind of movie whereas the story not just revolve around the leading man and woman. So, you would have the romantic couple, the funny ones, the break-ups ones, the sexy one.. all in a movie. The ensemble cast are great as well. The movie is about modern day relationships and how men and women often misconstrue the intentions of the opposite sex which I and a lot of people out there can relate to the story in this movie. The movie sort of self-acclaim that they are not 1 of those cliche chick flick film.. and I definitely agree.



4. A Walk to Remember
I admire any woman character who can influence a guy to be a better man..better person. It's such an accomplishment to be a reason behind any man's success or good life. Same as Never Been Kissed, I've read the novel before the movie came out. Since I loved the novel so much, and Landon Carter is just sooo sweet, this movie made it to my Top 10 list. I loved the soundtrack as well.


3. Memoirs of Geisha
You can do and be willing to do anything to be with the person you love. I can't imagine myself, falling in love with someone that obviously out of my league and do everything that I can so that I can be closer to him.. to get his attention and to be worthy of him. At times in the movie, I do feel like, "whyla this girl need to go through all those hassle just for a guy".. but I guess that's what makes it romantic. Sometimes it's not just guys who do all the efforts right?


2. Stardust
This movie story a journey of a boy (who then becomes a man) in a pursuit of a fallen star, to prove his love for a village beauty. Whose on earth would do that kann?? At first you may think it is ridiculous.. it is stupid and naive ("she just saying that to blew you off, honey.."). But, put all the magical nonsense apart.. his intentions and actions are 'meltingly' sweet.. and totally romantic.



1. Pride and Prejudice
I'm a sucker when it comes to vintage romance stuffs.. especially the British ones.. The falling in love part..the dating part.. the meet up part.. the proposal.. all look so in etique.. very gentleman-ish.. All this elements are very evident in the movie which I like. Apart from that, like other adaptation films, I like the movie because I like the story, i.e the novel and the characters.

God=Tuhan=Allah

This is my first 2010 blog entry?? After half-way of February?? huhuhu.. I actually have a lot of things that I experienced last month which I would like to share and write about.. So, the next few new entries would be dedicated to those stories.

However, I do have a blog post draft on the issue of "Allah" being used by non-Muslim... I don't know what had happenned there that the writing got stuck half-way.. My lack of knowledge makes me feel that I don't have the right to express what I feel in this matter. In 1 thought, I would think that "what's the big deal?". In my other thought, my mind telling me that "Allah is the name of God (Tuhan) which I and all Muslims worship. Does the non-Muslim worship the same God that I do? If they are not (which I believe they are not), then why use Allah?".

Whatever confusion this issue had over me, whether it's wrong or right to allow non-Muslim to use "Allah"..the only thing that I certainly know is right...with my believe as a Muslim, God=Tuhan=Allah.

My Life of 2009

Looking back at my 2009 moments..

January
My grandfather (my father side) passed away. I know that, he was never himself after my father's death. My father was his eldest son. One that he depends on much. Each time I met him. I can see that he suffers deeply and he missed his son so much that he feels like he doesn't have any purpose to live anymore. My grandmother told my mum, that yai (what we, the cucu all call him) read the very last letter that my late father wrote to him almost every night. From then, I started to realise, that it's actually harder for a parents to see their child passed away before them.

February/March
No major event that I care enough to remember.

April
I took a job at a tution centre, teaching Maths for Form3 students, teaching for the first time. I don't like teaching really. That is why I always against my mum's wishes asking me to become a lecturer. And I know for a fact that I can't teach, especially to the 'lembap' n 'manja' ones. No offence to them..But, not only that I don't have the patience. It's also quite hard for me to come to terms that things that I can understand is actually quite hard for other people to grasp. So my theory is, if you can't think like the 'lembap' ones. You won't be able to reach out to them and teach the way that they will understand. I can understand my way. But they may not rite?

Because of all that, my teaching part time career ended a few months later.. hahahaha..

May
One of my resolution this year is to be fit and have flat tummy..So, I signed up for gym membership in Fitness First. During my first few sessions, I had a few complimentary session with the trainer. Since I'm not hot enough (i.e wearing tight short pants and sexy t-shirt), no hot trainers interested to train me. I ended up with a short trainer instead. Such a blow.. But what the heck, eh..In a way, I should be relieved. At least, I can concentrate on working my own body rather than checking out the trainer's body..hahahaha..

It was really tough. In front of the trainers, he forced me to lift 5kg weight. But when I'm on my own..I cheat and lift the 2.5kg weight instead..hahaha.. Did I have the flat tummy I want and be more fit? hmm.. my answer is.. No comment. hahahah..

June
1 morning, my mum answered a call from someone we know. The conversation sounds like a very serious thing had happenned. I got a feeling that, it was not a good thing. At 1 point I hear my mom said, "Bolehla..Bawaklah dia datang sini..Biar Ecah bela"..hmmmm..

Once my mom put off the phone, I quicly asked, "What happenned?"

The next day.. a baby girl was presented to us. Her name is Nur Aishah Zulaika. It was the start for all of us to suddenly become a mum. I'm not married, and never had baby sister or brother. Thus, it's my first ever experience. My mum have not taken care any baby for 26 years. Thus, she is also sort of like a new mother as well.

Life certainly is not the same anymore...

July
Quite an eventful month. Had a few memorable activities with the RizAngels peeps. One of it was Hari Raya Photoshoot for MH Raya Bumper. (I didn't even manage to buy the magazine to frame it.. :p).

End of the month was my BIRTHDAY!!! Nothing to really be excited about. I don't celebrate it anyway. However, the highlight of the week was karaoke nite with Riz and the Angels. I was so lucky to be part of it. He sang a lot of songs that nite. Once he arrived, he conquered the mic all to himself. Since it's not always you got the opportunity to hear and watch a singer, singing in front your eyes. So, I don't mind not having the mic at all.. I got to sing "Ceritera Cinta" with him anyway..yeeepeee!!! (he sang beautifully... but I'm soo no close to Jaclyn Victor..hehehe.. Lucky sis Frizz helped me at end of the song to cover the high pitch part..)

August
My brother got engaged!!! And as you can see later.. the rest of the months of the year, were dedicated to his big day only.. huhuhu..

September/ October/ November
My life mostly evolve around work, baby Zulaika.. my brother's wedding preparation.

Not that I have a lot to prepare. really I just volunteer to do his hantaran. But, a lot of surveying work were involved. Went here and there to find good and cheap resources and trying to pick out ideas as well. The end result? Believe it or not.. I didn't even manage to take pics of my work. But I do have memoirs of it in a video. Thanks Pak Long..

Closer to the reception. My weekends, packed with house-to-house visits to my mum's closest friends. We planned to go to a lot of houses and personally invite a lot of them. But, after 1 or 2 weekends, our plan had not really go into plan. If we planned to go to 5 houses. We may end up getting 2. One thing about my mum is, (which I believe, I have this trait from her too), is not the kind of a person who like to hang out with friends, casually (she only goes out if there's an event or invitation) or go to friend's houses. Although, her friends are mostly welcoming kind of person, she just have this mindset, that her visit will disturb her friends - thinking that her friends may be busy with work, kids, husband.. whatever. So, you guys can imagine how excited her friends were, and after awhile not meeting each other, you can imagine the length of topics to share and story.

December
The Wedding... and that's ended my year.

Happy New Year peeps!!! and Welcome to 2010!!!