Life without My-Vince

Wow! I actually had lived without a car for more than 3 months!! The only car available at home is a manual car which I'm so suck at driving it, which make, my mum and the rest of house members as my official driver.

Throughout this period.. I enjoy not paying for car loans. I enjoy not have to be the only person that mum has to depend on to do anything or to go anywhere. I like it that I contribute less to air pollution. I like it that I save so much of not spending on petrol. I like it (sometimes) that I go to Carrefour or Wangsa Walk or Rampai LRT station walking.

But... there are also a couple of things that I do not like...

I hate taking public transport. OK, I seldom go to office. But instead of usual 30 mins drive from home to 1Utama, it actually took me 2 hours to 1Utama by public transport. It not even cost savings (perhaps, just slightly) and definitely not time savings! I hate waiting and wasting time. That's why I don't like to go to office. Even with driving, I can lost at least 30 mins where that 30 mins, I can perhaps finish 1 or 2 budget report or even better, an extra sleeping time. hahaha..

I hate depending on people too. I'm so used to of doing anything or going anywhere by myself. So, it is tiring that you need other people to help you to go somewhere. Not everybody or everytime, people are free and available for you. I always feel bad if I need to bother anybody or being such a hassle although the person may be sincerely and willingly helpful. Maybe I should not have to feel so bad. But hey, it's just an imah-desease kind of thing. I just can't help it.

I hate to make decisions. It's easy if you like a certain car and money is never a problem. No point of liking this 1 car but you can't even afford the monthly payment. I was going through so many doubts and second thoughts on what my second car would be. The situation is like I just get a divorced and now I'm searching for my second husband. Obviously I want my second husband to be better than the last one. And this time, I need to make sure that I got the 'blessing' from my whole family in hope this time it can last longer. Uuurgh! I just hate deciding and it was so hard to make up my mind.

Thank God. All that is already in the past. Thanks to Him, for helping me to get through the period without my dear 'Vince' and help to guide me through making the decision. I know I would be lost without You.

p/s: I still missed my 'Vince'.

Oh No! Not me please...

I don't mind be friend with a married man. I have friends who are. While some, I have their wife as my friend as well, but there are also some that I do not. Whether I know their wife or not or their wife know me or not, I know my limit as a friend and respect their marital status. As far as I know myself, I do not have any feelings to any of my married friends. Of course I do have a lil' bit of interest to 1 or 2 of them before, but the feeling did not continue once they have officially 'owned' by other women.

I do have an issue however, if the friend would like to take an advantage of our friendship and trying to get 'itchy'. If they are a true friend, and really know me, they would never ever trying to make a move on me or even thinking about it. I knowla I'm 'andartu'. But, pleasela don't let that give you an idea that I can consider anybody and entertain your 'itchiness'. It's not that I'm against poligamy. If it was written in my fate that my 'jodoh' is with a married man, then I do need to accept that. Dah jodoh kan? But I know that the decision will come if and only if the situation is right and it is for the good and happiness for all parties and not my own.

I can't predict the future. And I don't know where my heart will 'fall' and all. But I do appreciate the co-operations of all my married friends or any other married man out there (who might read this) that if you are looking for a new 'branch' please please and please..try your best to look at other area and not mine.

Ada Apa Dengan Cinta

Terjumpa this 1 piece of paper in 1 of my old CD. I thought it was the lyrics print - Most international CD album do not include the lyrics of the songs rite. So, I will usually print of the lyrics myself, and put it inside the CD.. hihihi.. But it was something else - a short poem, I wrote a couple years ago for my self-made Valentine cards and wishes. While reading it, I was like..did I wrote this? hahahah..

Dalam rumah ada bilik..
Dalam bilik ada almari
Dalam almari ada baju
Dalam baju ada tubuh
Dalam tubuh ada hati
Dalam hati ada cinta
Dalam cinta.. ada segalanya..

Contest : Family Sedondon

This is my picture with my extended family. Gambar ini diambil waktu majlis persandingan sepupu adik ipar imah kat Semenyih, Selangor, awal tahun hari tuh. Kalau bab kenduri kahwin, keluarga diorang nih memang paling sporting. Cakapla, tema kahwin kaler aper, gerenti boleh at least 90% sedondon punyer. Belum masuk bab posing gambar lagi. Gambar di atas adalah buktinya. :D

Ultimate Love Song

Last year I did the Top 10 favorite romantic/love movie. So this year, I'm doing the list for my favorite love songs of all time. This is definitely very hard because there are thousands of wonderful love songs out there. But through time these songs had meant a lot to me

Girlfriend - N'Sync feat Nelly
"Would you be my girlfriend?"

I do not have so many experiences falling in love or have a special someone I can called 'my boyfriend'. This song was a hit when I have one. We danced to this song while he lip-sync the chorus to me. He was lucky that the DJ decided to play the song that night. If not, he probably, need to postpone the question to other night then. hahaha.

p/s: If JC or JT ever asked me that question.. I will definitely say "hell, yeah".. (sambil terlompat2 dgn gedixnyer)


I want to spend the my lifetime loving you - Marc Anthony & Tina Arera
Most duet songs are revolve around the theme of love. There's a lot of very memorable duet songs like One Sweet Day, Endless Love, My Heart, Senja Nan Merah, Ceritera Cinta, Cinta etc etc that I can list on, but I decided to choose this 1 in my list instead :)


For the rest of my life - Maher Zain
OK. I'm one of those who also 'infected' with the Maher Zain phenomenon :)


Tanpa Kekasihku - Agnes Monica
This is one sad love song. Obviously, there are times in our life that we lost somebody dearest in our heart. Below are a few lines of the songs that I like and really touch my heart..

"Kubiarkan senyumku, menari diudara.. Biar semua tahu, kematian tak mengakhiri... cinta..."

"Di mana letak syurga itu..Biar kugantikan tempatmu denganku..Adakah tanda syurga itu..Biar kutemukan untuk bersamamu"


Until the end of time - Innuendo
This is one of the most romantic wedding-theme song coming from a Malaysian artist. I would definitely will feature this song in my wedding (when it happens 1 day..)

"And I give my heart and soul, I give it all to you.. to you..All my hopes and dreams are in this wedding ring..I love you.. until the end of time"

Full lyrics

p/s: I love Innuendo!!! Had huge crush on Reymee. Big time!


My All - Mariah Carey
My ultimate favorite song. It's not really related to me or my love life. Perhaps, because I love this song so much, I used to sing this song to my exes on the phone at night..hahaha.. The memory really bring smile to my face now..
p/s: Poyo-nyer I...


Sesungguhnya - Raihan
I believe that the greatest love of all is the love to the Allah. And, to feel that we are loved by the Him. And, we are blessed by Him.

"Tuhan hadiahkanlah kasih Mu kepadaku..Tuhan kurniakanlah rinduku kepada Mu..Moga ku tahu..Syukur ku hanyalah milik Mu"

Full lyrics

Kau Kekasihku - Siti Nurhaliza
"Dari mata..Dari jiwa yang berahi..Kini kumengerti istilah percintaan ini..Moga nanti ada seru menyatakan..kau kekasihku hingga ke akhirnya.."

"From my eyes.. From my passionate soul.. I've understand the meaning of this love..Perhaps they will be time.. a sign to say.. you're mine..until the end of time"

I had a number of disappointment and heartbreak in love. I have used that part of the lyrics of this songs in several occasions, as my "last-ever-love-note-I-will-ever-send-to-you". You can note that I even have 2 versions of it to cater different audiences. hahahah..


Hello - Lionel Ritchie/David Cook
"Hello? Is it me you're looking for?"

I think, I have this questions on my mind so many time. I'm such a fool when it comes to love, flirt, sign language etc etc. The lyrics of this song mentioned about "tell me how to win you heart.. coz I haven't got a clue". And yes, most of the time, I really don't have a clue. And because of that, I lost quite a few of someones whom I like because I have not acted very well in this pre-love mind games. Well, perhaps it's not really meant to be rite?

p/s: I love David Cook's version...

I Love You - Celine Dion
I have to pick this Celine Dion song! Period! :D
Plus, I do believe in the power of these 3 words.

Petua Untuk Rajin Bersolat

Jika anda ingin jadi orang yang rajin mengerjakan Solat, amalkanlah doa ini. Bacalah selalu Surah Ibrahim: Ayat 40

"Rabbij 'alnii muqiimaSSalaati wa min dzurriyyatii, Rabbana wataqabbal du'aa'."

Maksudnya: "Wahai Tuhanku! Jadikanlah daku orang yang mendirikan sembahyang dan demikianlah juga zuriat keturunanku. Wahai Tuhan kami, perkenankanlah doa permohonanku."

Surah Ibrahim: Ayat 40-43
[40] Wahai Tuhanku! Jadikanlah daku orang yang mendirikan sembahyang dan demikianlah juga zuriat keturunanku. Wahai Tuhan kami, perkenankanlah doa permohonanku.
[41] Wahai Tuhan kami! Berilah ampun bagiku dan bagi kedua ibu bapaku serta bagi orang-orang yang beriman, pada masa berlakunya hitungan amal dan pembalasan.
[42] Dan janganlah engkau (wahai Muhammad) menyangka Allah lalai akan apa yang dilakukan oleh orang-orang yang zalim; sesungguhnya Dia hanya melambatkan balasan mereka hingga ke suatu hari yang padanya terbeliak kaku pemandangan mereka, (kerana gerun gementar melihat keadaan yang berlaku).
[43] (Dalam pada itu) mereka terburu-buru (menyahut panggilan ke padang Mahsyar) sambil mendongakkan kepala mereka dengan mata tidak berkelip dan hati mereka tidak bersemangat (kerana bingung dan cemas).

p/s: M always struggling to discipline myself to fulfill this very important Rukun Islam. Hopefully, I'll get better with it in the future... Amiiin.



It's not just RM10...

I and family went to this Konsert Ria at i-City Shah Alam on Sunday. People said the place is beautiful at nights. So, I was feeling quite anxious to see it. Since we're bringing Zulaika with us, I've reminded mum to pack her stroller, so that I don't have to 'dukung' her all the time. Although, she likes to walk by herself, but at times when she's so tired and there's a lot of people, she'll got scared, and prefer that I carry her in my arms. So stroller is a compulsary equipment for an outdoor outings. While we were well equipped with the stuffs for Zulaika's comfort, we all forgot about ourself.

When we arrived, it was raining. And, we did not have any umbrella in the car. There were always a couple in the car previously. But, sometimes, I will drive my brother's car. So, those things had been moved to his car too. Luckily there was a shop there that sell umbrella. It was the first shop we went and they promote to us the only umbrella they have left on sale. It looks like a good umbrella and it was RM10. Don't want to be so picky, I just bought it.

The umbrella did serve us good in a couple of minutes under the soft raining condition. Not long after that, the rain had stopped and I closed the umbrella. However, not so long after that, it was raining again. Quite heavily this time. Mum tried to open the umbrella. But this time, the umbrella did not open as fully as it should. We both pull up, pull down and do all sorts of pulling and pushing to get that umbrella operated, but failed. We already far away from the shops and we don't have any roof-tops near to us either. We just stand under the umbrella and hold it from under to cover both of us. Feels like in 'Memori Daun Pisang' video clip ..But if I were happenned to be trapped under the rain like that with a boyfriend, maybe syokla jugak kan.. hehehe

While we were under the umbrella, I can't help but cursing that sales-person. What kind of person selling faulty product like that?? Don't even last for 1 hour??!!! Wasted my RM10 just like that...haiyah.. Luckily mum was present when I bought it. So I kind of had asked for permission and agreement to buy it. If not, I will surely kena with my mum..At that time, I had wished that, "OK, kau rugikan duit orang 10 hengget, hopefully nanti kau rugi 100 hengget!!"

OKla, cursing him like that is a little over-reacting la.. Plus RM1o is nothing really. But I just can't tolerate people who doing things for profit. I understand that not all products are perfect. But for a thing that can only lasted for a few minutes. It's just too much and so not acceptable.