Wednesday, December 30, 2009
My grandfather (my father side) passed away. I know that, he was never himself after my father's death. My father was his eldest son. One that he depends on much. Each time I met him. I can see that he suffers deeply and he missed his son so much that he feels like he doesn't have any purpose to live anymore. My grandmother told my mum, that yai (what we, the cucu all call him) read the very last letter that my late father wrote to him almost every night. From then, I started to realise, that it's actually harder for a parents to see their child passed away before them.
No major event that I care enough to remember.
I took a job at a tution centre, teaching Maths for Form3 students, teaching for the first time. I don't like teaching really. That is why I always against my mum's wishes asking me to become a lecturer. And I know for a fact that I can't teach, especially to the 'lembap' n 'manja' ones. No offence to them..But, not only that I don't have the patience. It's also quite hard for me to come to terms that things that I can understand is actually quite hard for other people to grasp. So my theory is, if you can't think like the 'lembap' ones. You won't be able to reach out to them and teach the way that they will understand. I can understand my way. But they may not rite?
Because of all that, my teaching part time career ended a few months later.. hahahaha..
One of my resolution this year is to be fit and have flat tummy..So, I signed up for gym membership in Fitness First. During my first few sessions, I had a few complimentary session with the trainer. Since I'm not hot enough (i.e wearing tight short pants and sexy t-shirt), no hot trainers interested to train me. I ended up with a short trainer instead. Such a blow.. But what the heck, eh..In a way, I should be relieved. At least, I can concentrate on working my own body rather than checking out the trainer's body..hahahaha..
It was really tough. In front of the trainers, he forced me to lift 5kg weight. But when I'm on my own..I cheat and lift the 2.5kg weight instead..hahaha.. Did I have the flat tummy I want and be more fit? hmm.. my answer is.. No comment. hahahah..
1 morning, my mum answered a call from someone we know. The conversation sounds like a very serious thing had happenned. I got a feeling that, it was not a good thing. At 1 point I hear my mom said, "Bolehla..Bawaklah dia datang sini..Biar Ecah bela"..hmmmm..
Once my mom put off the phone, I quicly asked, "What happenned?"
The next day.. a baby girl was presented to us. Her name is Nur Aishah Zulaika. It was the start for all of us to suddenly become a mum. I'm not married, and never had baby sister or brother. Thus, it's my first ever experience. My mum have not taken care any baby for 26 years. Thus, she is also sort of like a new mother as well.
Life certainly is not the same anymore...
Quite an eventful month. Had a few memorable activities with the RizAngels peeps. One of it was Hari Raya Photoshoot for MH Raya Bumper. (I didn't even manage to buy the magazine to frame it.. :p).
End of the month was my BIRTHDAY!!! Nothing to really be excited about. I don't celebrate it anyway. However, the highlight of the week was karaoke nite with Riz and the Angels. I was so lucky to be part of it. He sang a lot of songs that nite. Once he arrived, he conquered the mic all to himself. Since it's not always you got the opportunity to hear and watch a singer, singing in front your eyes. So, I don't mind not having the mic at all.. I got to sing "Ceritera Cinta" with him anyway..yeeepeee!!! (he sang beautifully... but I'm soo no close to Jaclyn Victor..hehehe.. Lucky sis Frizz helped me at end of the song to cover the high pitch part..)
My brother got engaged!!! And as you can see later.. the rest of the months of the year, were dedicated to his big day only.. huhuhu..
September/ October/ November
My life mostly evolve around work, baby Zulaika.. my brother's wedding preparation.
Not that I have a lot to prepare. really I just volunteer to do his hantaran. But, a lot of surveying work were involved. Went here and there to find good and cheap resources and trying to pick out ideas as well. The end result? Believe it or not.. I didn't even manage to take pics of my work. But I do have memoirs of it in a video. Thanks Pak Long..
Closer to the reception. My weekends, packed with house-to-house visits to my mum's closest friends. We planned to go to a lot of houses and personally invite a lot of them. But, after 1 or 2 weekends, our plan had not really go into plan. If we planned to go to 5 houses. We may end up getting 2. One thing about my mum is, (which I believe, I have this trait from her too), is not the kind of a person who like to hang out with friends, casually (she only goes out if there's an event or invitation) or go to friend's houses. Although, her friends are mostly welcoming kind of person, she just have this mindset, that her visit will disturb her friends - thinking that her friends may be busy with work, kids, husband.. whatever. So, you guys can imagine how excited her friends were, and after awhile not meeting each other, you can imagine the length of topics to share and story.
The Wedding... and that's ended my year.
Happy New Year peeps!!! and Welcome to 2010!!!
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Although technically he's my younger brother, but I always treat him as if he's my elder brother too.. (not because I juz simply want to perasan muda yer.. hehehe)..He's always ahead of me in many things.. He knows how to ride bicycle before I did. He had his driving license before me. He starts earn his living (i.e working) before me. And now, he weds before me..
I have no problem being 'dilangkah-bendul' to him. Even way back during my teenager years, I kind of knew that he will wed before me. And I sort of want him to. I don't know why but I always want him to marry before me..
My only problem now is.. people is starting to put expectations on me.. muchly anticipate for another wedding invitation with my name in it. Not only that.. people is now eager to wait for who I will marry and my wedding receptions..
They said: "Wedding imah nanti mesti lagi grand kan?"
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
1 of the activities during the program was "Reject Shop".. The game was simple.. Each of us had a cardboard stick on our back with a certain statement on it. Nobody is made aware of their own statement. We were required to play for 10 rounds. The objective is in each round, we need to form a partnership of 2 or more with each other and if combination of our statement is true, we got + points, - points if we don't. Further - points if we end up alone (i.e. fail to make any partner) in each round. The twist of this game was, we can't communicate verbally to each other.
OK.. I had no idea what was on my back and so as everybody else, except that we can look at what was on other's back. So the 1st round started. 1 of the first few person's back that I looked stated "Accept me in all rounds".. He already got a partner with him stated "Accept me if I'm older". Since that other person was also obviously older than me, I nodded eagerly towards them giving a signal that I can accept them. But then he had a look at my back and geleng his head. oooh.. potential successful partnership ruined. I was so disappointed. I said to myself, "Lucky him". I can imagine that people will be lining up to be his partner. I got closer to some people I know. 1 of them is Mira.. what she had on her back was.. "Reject me if I'm beautiful". I glanced at her face 1 time.. think..and glanced again at her face..Damnn.. she is beautiful. So, I 'honestly', rejected her. I went to another person, and what she had was "Reject me if you're taller than me". She's practically 1 of the smallest in the group. which made me automatically taller than her. So, I rejected her. Time is ticking, and I can't find any suitable partner yet. It's not that simple after all eh?.. Not to wasting any more time..I went to another person, and he had "Reject me if I'm holding a pencil". I didn't even have to think harder for this one. Immediately, I rejected him. Why? Since, we were given a pencil and a piece of paper to jot our marks in each round. So all of us, obviously was holding a piece of paper and a pencil. duh... 1st round ended not long after..I end up partner-less in the 1st round. I told myself, "No way, I will be able to win this..huhuhu" (me in my competitive mode.. wanting to win everything..hehehe).
Game continues.. I play the same way I was in the previous. Reading cardboard on people's back and make a decision whether they can be my partner or not. At the same time, others will read mine and 'signaled' their decision. After awhile, I realised something. If that person is wearing a watch, he/she will have the "Reject me if I'm wearing a watch". If that person is the tallest in the group, he/she will have the "Reject me if I'm taller than you". If that person is a happy-go-lucky type, he/she will have the "Reject me if I'm always smiling". Then, there's some people who got statement like "Reject me in ALL rounds" or "Reject me if you like me". How cruel is that? I was like.. what the F??!!.. they (I mean the facilitator people) purposely stick certain statement to a certain people, so that people will automatically/ will always be rejected.. The game started to bore me.. I neither not able to accept people nor be accepted. I played a few rounds partner-less. It's sucks to be rejected especially when you didn't know the reason why.
The facilitator actually noticed that I was 1 of some that consistently partner-less. He kept saying.
"If you're still end up with no partner, that's mean you're not playing with your head and you're not playing with your heart". I keep looking at him every time he said that. Knowing that, he'll repeat his statement to my face too. Maybe my usual 'blur' face gave him the impression that I still didn't get what he was saying. Or... just maybe, he was trying to help me to get a grasp on what I should do. Head and heart..Head..Brain...Think. OK. Got that 1.. Heart.. Heart...OK. It's related to Feelings...Feel..So, it's Think and Feel. I need to think harder and feel deeper..
After I finally switched on my bimbo brain.. I start to understand the game and start making my partnership, only after Round 5 ya people. Feels like such a fool. Halfway through, then baru tau how to play.. haiiyah.. Since I already know who has what on their back. I know who should I go to or when. And other people started to accept me as well. Started to accept me in their little partnership. It was fun again. I'm getting a few +ve marks here n there and less -ve amount than before. Maybe they too were bluurr like I was too.. hehehehe..
After finished with the 10 rounds, we gathered and had our reflection/ discussion moment. Of course, the objective is to relate the activity to the reality environment at work. Does it happen at work? what we have understand out of it? how we should address it? How that relate to personal leadership? and so on.. While we were all discussing and talking about it, deep inside I felt like as if the game had exposed me. When I failed to make a partnership with anybody in the 1st few rounds, I did took it to heart. At the end of each game, the facilitator will asked, "Who's alone?". When I hold my hand up, I did feel sad..really feel sad about it..Just coincidentally, in the real world I'm also partner-less, you see. SINGLE. No partner. Not just for a few rounds, as in this game.. but a few years!!! It hit me. I feel like I was getting a smack on my face. Ouch!! I was like.. " Not that just I'm single in real life.. I struggled to form partnership in a bloody game too???"
hahahah.. I can laugh at it now.. and think it was silly. What I felt was funny, I think.. But at that time, I can't help but wonder..maybe.. maybe not only maybe.. that's how I live my life... that's how I handled my relationship matters. That's why I'm still single. I've been playing "Reject Shop" all along. Like how I was in the 1st few rounds. As if all the guys I ever met and known have a sticker on their back. "Reject me if I'm too good looking"... "Reject me if I was your friend's ex-es"... "Reject me if your friend fancy me"... "Reject me if I'm not Muslim"... "Reject me if I'm younger than you"... "Reject me if my mom loves me"... "Reject me if I'm not funny"... "Reject me if I don't play football"... "Reject me if I can't sing"..."Reject me if I'm fairer than you".. and so on and so on.. you know? like...you have a certain criterias, some of which maybe silly and shallow even.. So, when you met anybody, know a little fact about him, then bam!!! you didn't think and feel further. Straight-away.. you gave the "no, i'm not interested-you're not what i'm looking for-you and I are not compatible" signal.
Again, what the facilitator said to all of us in the game keep repeating in my mind. I questioned myself..
I'm single because I do not think with my brain and I do not feel with my heart? hmm.. I have no such answer to that yet. hmm.. maybe I do but still in denial?? Who knows?? hahahah..I feel that, in the context of that activity, yes, having a partner is better than being alone regardless if both party met each others condition or not (i.e. you're getting better marks). However, in real life, I think, it's not necessarily better that for the sake of having a partner, you just accept whoever that came along your way. That's what I feel. But I may be wrong. This perception is what had made me where I am today, rite? As if, I'm not playing the "Reject Shop" the right way with my brain and heart and all..hehehe.... It's time for THINK and FEEL. Then..... CHANGE!!!
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
So much things had happened this past few weeks that can be interesting to share and I would love to share.. but, sometimes, interesting story are meant to just be 'confidential' and 'biarlah rahsia'.. That is why, sometimes.... it's hard to keep a secret eh? It's hard not to share something to someone..especially when that something is worth to be shared.. whateverla eh...
I drove down to JB this Monday evening, visiting one of my dearest aunty. She had an operation to remove a fibroid a month ago. The operation was a success except that, she is currently struggling with the surgery suture. She already had her 1st suture removed and get it sutured back. But now, she had her 2nd suture removed and wait for the suitable condition for the 3rd suturing.. huhuhu.. Really pity her.. I just can't imagine how painful it can be..hope she can be strong, keep feeling positive and get well soon..
Friday, October 2, 2009
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Monday, September 14, 2009
Removing the person's number in your mobile and your FB lists?
p/s: I don't what is in this man's mind.. who's in his late 30s.. who's not my boyfriend.. a man whom I didn't see as a potential boyfriend too (because of several obvious reasons).. whom I never had any argument(s) with.. suddenly acting all weird and pissed off? I wonder...
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Obviously, everybody is hungry. Everybody has the same time to buka puasa..but I just don't understand why people can be very impatient..and acted annoyingly like they're the only person who want the food to be ready on time before the azan.. If you already order.. pleasla be a little bit civilised.. and wait until your turn.. I really hate it, when some of them keep pushing about their order..
Mak Cik 1: "Mee Goreng akak dik" "Mee Goreng akak dik" at every chance they can..
Mak Cik 2: "Akak dah order lama dah nih"..It's like other people who's standing waiting there had not.. Kiter yg order dulu dari dia pun belum dapat.. lagi nak kecoh..
Mak Cik 3: "Jangan lupa dik, akak punya kueh tiaw ladna.."..
Mak Cik 4: " Akak punya Tom Yam dah masak belum?"..
I really pity the person at the counter.. If me, I would totally be confused..pening and pengsan terus.. There's people who is yet to order.. but then, there's people who keep asking about their order too..(like the mak ciks2 above).. huhuhu.. But, I don't just hate them being kecoh2 and pushy.. but I hate it when this mak ciks2 although came and order later than me, will eventually get their food earlier.. for just being annoying.. grrr...sabar.. sabar.. tarik nafas panjang2..
Conclusion: In this challenging world/life..do we need to be pushy and selfish to get what we want??
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Buat Renungan dan panduan...
Fadhilat Menunaikan Solat Terawikh Sepanjang Ramadhan diriwayatkan oleh saiyidina Ali (r.a) daripada Rasulullah s.a.w., sebagai jawapan dari pertanyaan sahabat-sahabat nabi s.a.w. tentang fadhilat (kelebihan) sembahyang sunat terawikh pada bulan ramadhan:
keluar dosa-dosa orang mukmin pada malam pertama sepertimana ia baru dilahirkan, mendapat keampunan dari Allah.
diampunkan dosa dosa orang mukmin yang solat terawikh serta kedua ibubapanya (sekiranya mereka orang beriman).
berseru malaikat di bawah ‘Arasy supaya kami meneruskan solat terawikh terus menerus. `semoga Allah mengampunkan dosa engkau.’
memperolehi pahala ia sebagaimana pahala orang orang yang membaca kitab kitab taurat, zabur, injil dan al Quran.
Allah kurniakan baginya pahala orang-orang yang bersembahyang di masjidilharam, masjid madinah dan masjid aqsa.
Allah kurniakan pahala kepadanya pahala malaikat-malaikat yang tawaf di Baitul Ma’mur (70 ribu malaikat sekali tawaf), serta setiap batu-batu dan tanah-tanah mendoakan supaya Allah mengampunkan dosa-dosa orang yang mengerjakan sembahyang tarawih pada malam ini
seolah-olah ia mendapat bertemu dengan Nabi Musa serta menolong nNabi ‘Alaihissalam menentang musuh ketatnya fir’aun dan hamman.
Allah mengurniakan pahala orang sembahyang terawikh sepertimana yang telah dikurniakan kepada nabi Allah Ibrahim “Alaihissalam.
Allah kurniakan pahala dan dinaikkan mutu ibadat hambanya seperti nabi Muhammad s.a.w.
Allah subhanahuwata’ala mengurniakan kepadanya kebaikan didunia dan di akhirat.
keluar ia daripada dunia (mati) bersih daripada dosa seperti ia baru dilahirkan.
datang ia pada hari Qiamat dengan muka yang bercahaya (cahaya ibadatnya).
datang ia pada hari Qiamat dalam aman sentosa daripada tiap-tiap kejahatan dan keburukan.
datang malaikat menyaksikan ia bersembayang terawikh, serta Allah tiada menyesatkannya pada hari Qiamat.
semua malaikat yang menanggung ‘Arasy, Kursi, berselawat dan mendoakannya supaya Allah mengampunkannya.
Allah Subhanahuwata’ala tuliskan baginya terlepas daripada neraka dan dimasukkan ke dalam syurga.
Allah kurniakan orang yang berterawikh pahalanya pada malam ini sebanyak pahala para nabi.
seru malaikat: hai hamba Allah! sesungguhnya Allah telah redha kepada engkau dan ibubapa engkau (yang masih hidup atau mati).
Allah Subhanahuwata’ala tinggikan darjatnya didalam syurga firdaus.
Allah kurniakan kepadanya pahala sekian orang yang mati syahid dan orang-orang solihin.
Allah binakan sebuah istana dalam syurga daripada nur.
malam 22:datang ia pada hari Qiamat aman daripada tiap-tiap dukacita dan kerisauan (tidaklah dalam keadaan huru-hara di padang mahsyar).
Allah Subhanahuwata’ala binakan kepadanya sebuah bandar didlam syurga daripada nur.
Allah buka peluang 24 doa yang mustajab bagi orang berterawikh malam ini, (elok sekali berdoa ketika dalam sujud).
Allah Taala angkatkan daripadanya siksa kubur.
Allah kurniakan kepada orang berterawikh pahala pada malam ini seumpama 40 tahun beribadat.
Allah kurniakan orang berterawikh pada malam ini ketangkasan melintas atas titian sirotulmustaqim seperti kilat menyambar
Allah Subhanahuwata’ala kurniakan kepadanya 1000 darjat diakhirat
Allah Subhanahuwata’ala kurniakan kepadanya pahala 1000 kali haji yang mabrur.
Allah Subhanahuwata’ala beri penghormatan kepada orang berterawikh pada malam terakhir ini yang teristimewa sekali, lalu berfirman: “wahai hambaku: makanlah segala jenis buah-buahan yang engkau ingini hendak makan didalam syurga, dan mandilah engkau daripada air syurga yang bernama salsabila, serta minumlah air daripada telaga yang dikurniakan kepada Nabi Muhammad S.A.W. yang bernama ‘al-Kauthar’”
” Sila abaikan fadilat tersebut kerana wujud keraguan mengenai kesahihannya. Apapun, bak kata alim ulama. kita berbuat janganlah kerana pahala. wallahualam.
Monday, August 17, 2009
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Memang tak faham dengan pe'el setengah2 orang nih.. One of my concept in life is.. kalau benda tuh kita boleh buat sendiri tanpa meyusahkan orang lain.. imah akan sedaya upaya cuba lakukannya sendiri tanpa mengharap orang lain.. Jadik memang tak paham kalau ada orang yang tak reti-reti adab dan malu.. suka nak menyusahkan dan menambah beban hidup orang..
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
dari kecik sampai besar..sumer orang panggil imah jer..takder nickname lain..
2 - Anda seorang yg...?
baik hati.. huahuahua... takkan nak mengaku jahat pulakkan..
3 - Insan yang teristimewa
Ishak b. Mas'od (arwah bapak) and Vico (arwah kucing kesayangan)..
4 - Lagu kesukaan?
Banyak giler!!! Antara yg paling minat.. My All (Mariah Carey), Tanpa Kekasihku (Agnes), I Don't Wanna Be (Gavin DeGraw), Kau Kekasihku, Usah Ragui (Siti Nurhaliza), Don't Speak (No Doubt), Coba, Mahakarya Cinta (Faizal Tahir)
5 - Makanan kesukaan?
Sumer makanan imah bedal jer.. kalau western, Italian foods (esp. lasagne).. kalau fastfood,KFC.. kalau deserts, choc cheese cake, cendol.. kalau local, aper2 yg mak masak.. hehehe..
6 - Sikap yang membuat anda stress?
stress boleh datang kalau imah berhadapan dengan org yang tak sabar.. 'kiasu'.. suker sibuk2 dengan benda2 yg remeh-temeh
7 - Warna kegemaran?
8 - Benda yang mesti ada dlm beg?
Beg tgn imah kecik jer.. jadik yg ader.. purse, henpon, kunci keta n rumah jer
9 - Kali terakhir anda menangis?
2nd Mar 09.. waktu baca Yaasin utk arwah bapak for his bedday..or any other day after that waktu tgk filem..hehehe..
10 - Tag untuk 6 rakan anda?
Takmo tagla.. kalau ader yg sudi menjawab.. silakan...
Monday, August 10, 2009
I paint our guest room which now turned to be my mum's room in 5hrs last night.. Alone, OK.. No assistance from anybody.. At the end, I did smell and look like a 'sakai'.. Who knows how a sakai looked eh? hehehe..
This is one of my personal achievement. Definitely can put into my CV. Maner tau boleh amik upah cat bilik org plak.. hahahah..
The experience really taught me.. and hope I can compliment what my mom did for Opah and have a daughter like me to assist.. hehehe.. Will baby Ecah up for the challenge??? hahahah
Sunday, August 2, 2009
What was my business there? hmm.. very important business indeed.. My bro and his soon-to-be wife and I went there to buy stuffs for 'majlis merisik'.. We all very satisfied with our quest at the end of the day.. coz we managed to buy all the stuffs we want.. kain2 baju nikah.. samping..songkok and cincin risik.. Alhamdullillah..
So, memang x syokla kalau your holiday jadi your sick-days.. Plus, imah risau jugak kalau-kalau terkena H1N1 plak.. bila scan2..my demam was suam-suam suku jer.. so terlepasla jadik suspek penghidap.. Alhamdulillah lagik..
Then, come Thursday.. my birthday!!! Since, I didn't celebrate birthday.. so birthday or not birthday is pretty much the same to me.. Apart of feeling old.. hahahah.. imah just felt grateful that imah is still breathing.. still dilimpahkan dengan kenikmatan hidup dan rezeki yang secukupnya.. and blessed with wonderful family and friends.. Alhamdulillah..
27 adalah my target age to get married.. So, I have another 12 months to still achieve my target.. hahahah.. I don't remember when I set this target and why I need to do so. But back then, I guess, at 27 years of age I would be ready to be someone's wife and I would probably meet my 'jodoh' already.. But, who am I to set things for myself eh?
My weekends packed with schedules.. I had UMNO Setiawangsa meeting in the morning at Hotel Nikko.. wakil Puteri UMNO cawangan.. siap kena pakai baju uniform sekolah dgn kain pink tu lagik.. glamer2 pegi Hotel Nikko tapi kena pakai uniform plak.. huhuhu..nothing much in the meeting.. ate breakfast then sit to hear Ketua Pemuda, Wanita and Puteri berucap.. Pretty much, most of them were talking about their big lost in the last elections.. the what.. why.. and action plan.. takdela fokus sgtkan dengar speech2 nih.. and I wonder how about the other Puteri ? Do they really listen to the speech dengan khusyuknya? Or they just gossiping.. ask about where each other get their baju from? where they get the selendang from.. how they do their hair n stuffs? If most of the ahli muda are in fact like me.. it makes me wonder, apakah nasib UMNO in the future? apakah nasib bangsa Melayu in the future? what kind of Melayu are we in the future?
Later in the evening, I went to The Gardens Midvalley for an exciting karaoke invitations.. It was supposed to starts at 6pm.. but I only move from the house 10 mins before 6.. imah budget2 ptg Sabtu slalunya jalan tak jam dah.. I think I can reach there within 30 mins.. Obviously, I forgot about the 'perhimpunan' plan.. I have 2 route options.. Option 1..take Duke until Mont Kiara then use Kerinchi Link or Option 2..the usual route.. Jalan Tun Razak-L'raya Mahameru-Jalan Bangsar.. So, when I drove out, I decided to take Option 2.. (jln yg x kena byr tol la).. but, when I just got to Jalan Tun Razak from Jalan Semarak.. the cars are already bumper-to-bumper and moving slowly.. So, I took the exit at Bulatan Pahang.. and drive thru Bandar Baru Sentul to cut to Jalan Mahameru thru Sentul Link, coz I thought the traffic is only slow at PWTC flyover.. but when I reached L'raya Mahameru.. the traffic is even worst.. more than 30 mins later, I reached Tasik Perdana exit.. and I saw the road was blocked by the police.. I wonder what was happening at Dataran Merdeka.. I don't think we're having any celebration concert but then the 'perhimpunan' thingy came into my mind.. big sigh..
Since cars were hardly moving, I decided to exit at Jalan Duta and drive thru Sprint to get to Kerinchi Link.. I stucked at the exit as well.. but since MidValley City exit is just a few metres away.. it didn't took me long to get to the destinantion.. My fuel tank pun dah start blinking.. Lucky, I managed to get off from the traffic sooner.. if my car suddenly kering and mati tgh2 jam tuh.. fuh.. x taula mcm maner nak handle.. However, the night ended in a fun and memorable moments.. Really happy that I was lucky enough to have the opportunity to join..Mmg tidur dgn mimpi2 yg indah indeed.. :D
My last day of the week filled with 2 wedding events and 1 birthday party.. I'm totally out of baju kurong/kebaya to wear for a wedding dah.. I'm at the state that i don't care if people see me wear the same baju twice in 2/3 different ocassions.. huhuhu.. I desperately want to learn how to potong kain so I can sew my own baju kurong.. Tgh2 pokai nih.. I can't afford to tempah berpasang2 baju kurong.. huhuhu.. nak beli yg ready-made pun raser ralat jer.. nak yg cantik2 and kain tg ader kualiti sikit gerenti mahal giler.. anything I touched mesti harga rm200++.. tak mampu la!!!! kang beli yg rm50 tuh.. gerenti berlambak org pakai baju kain yg sama.. hahahah.. dahla x berduit.. berkira pulak tu kan?
That evening, first time la imah bawak mak and baby Ecah (baby yg kami dok jaga tu la) keluar jalan2.. So, yesterday was baby Ecah 1st birthday party.. wah.. Ecah mmg glamer la that evening.. menjadi rebutan mama2 angels.. hahaha.. seronokla baby tuh didodoi2 oleh mama2 yg comel dan gebu2.. siap terus terlena.. hahahah.. dapat merasa didukung oleh artis lagik.. 'mama' baby Ecah pun tak didukung dek artis.. tapi baby Ecah pulak yg dapat.. cisss.. hehehe..penat didukung2.. balik rumah baby terus jer tido dgn nyenyaknya.. biler dier merengek2, imah try jugak nak dodoi2kan dier.. tapi sekrg dier dah tak selesa dgn tangan 'tilam nipis' imah.. huhuhu.. yela.. dah merasa tilam VONO.. hahahah..
Friday, July 24, 2009
And recently, we have a baby living in our house.. The detailed story of whose the baby and how she (the baby is a she) got to my house, I think I want it to just be 'Biarlah Rahsia'.. although there's a funny story when I went to one of my aunty's house last weekends where my aunty's bibik mistakenly thought the baby was mine.. hahahah.. she was like so shocked (and amazed at the same time) when she looked at me with the baby. She's like rubbing2 my tummy.. and saying "nggak tauk pun mengandung?? nampak kempis saja perutnya".. She was so confused..So I add in more 'perisa' to her la..saying that.."Saya pun tak tau macam mana baby nih boleh keluar..tak mengandung pun..tiba2 jer dia terkeluar..magic!!! ini baby instant bik".. hahahah.. me just being evil..
Having her in the house and helping my mum taking care of her.. makes me realise that raising a baby, i.e. a child is like the most wonderful things in life.. She's not even my own child.. but I just adore her to bits and enjoying every seconds of 'motherhood'. It's all started as if, I'm helping out my mum.. coz I know looking after a baby is not an easy tasks.. and my mum is not really like herself 25 years back when she last took care of a baby.. So, whenever, my mum need to do something (pray..go to toilet.. mandi..rehat.. whatever), I will help to look after the baby for awhile.. I'm just lucky that, I can work from home. So at the mean time, I can just be around the house and gives the extra hands when needed.. Walaupun.. my dedication to IBM during the day is still the No. 1 priority la kan.. hehehe.. kang performance menurun.. tak dapat bonus and increment plak.. huhuhu..
After almost 2 months.. I can say that, I'm not scared with babies anymore.. Everytime, I look at the baby, my heart keeps telling me that I'm ready to have a child of my own.. I think I will be able to handle it, whenever the time come.. I feel like I want to be a mother.. and I think I'm ready to be one.. For now.. let me just having fun being the 'experimental mother' to Nur Aishah Zulaika..
p/s: I'm off to feed my other 9 'childrens' plak.. hehehe..
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Friday, July 17, 2009
I'm just tired.. bored and feeling sleepy.. Lucky it's Friday.. at least I can think of having the possibility of waking up late tomorrow morning and lazying on my bed.. if and only if I can actually really really do that.. but no harm in wishing and hoping and wondering and berangan-ing rite? hahaha..
Happy Weekend Everyone!!!
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Saya lama mengetahui kegiatan terbabit. Malangnya apabila disiarkan di TV, pelbagai pihak marah dan mengutuk.
"Apahal engkau kacau orang susah tu? Tak ada kerja lain?", "Kau nak masuk neraka ke?", "Kalau kau susah, padan muka!"
Antara respon saya terima melalui emel dan SMS. Apapun saya percaya banyak pihak menangguk di air keruh. Mereka tahu, majoriti rakyat Malaysia pemurah. Tanpa usul periksa mereka menyumbang.
Biar saya kongsikan satu daripada pengalaman saya lalui. Lelaki warga Thailand, 33 tahun, saya temui sewaktu menjalankan tinjauan berhubung kegiatan pengemis di Pasar Malam Kelana Jaya, Petaling Jaya, Selangor bulan Ramadan lalu. Lelaki itu cacat, tiada sebelah kaki. Katanya, kaki putus akibat terkena jerangkap samar lama dulu. Hairan, semasa saya mendekatinya, dia melarikan diri secara mengesut ke tempat parkir kereta. Mungkin dia mengenali saya dan kerjaya. Melalui temubual, dia mengaku meraih pendapatan antara RM100 dan RM150 sehari hasil mengemis. Januari lalu, saya ke Pasar Malam Kota Damansara dan kemudian terserempak 3 remaja Myanmar dianggarkan berusia antara 10 dan 12 tahun, cacat kaki dan tangan. Saya hampiri dan bertanya kepada mereka ...
"Siapa bawa kamu ke sini?"
Mereka diam dan berpura-pura bisu. Namun setelah beberapa kali didesak, mereka menunjukkan 'ayah' mereka. Terkejut, 'ayah' itu lelaki sama saya temui di Kelana Jaya. Cuma kali itu, berbeza. Dia berdiri sambil bercekak pinggang, bagai taukeh lagaknya. Tanpa disedari saya menghampiri lelaki itu. Dia terkejut melihat saya, pucat wajah tanpa darah.
"Macam mana kamu boleh bawa budak-budak tu mengemis?," soal saya.
Dia gugup. Ingin saya menampar mukanya, geram. Dia sanggup mengeksploitasi kanak-kanak terbabit untuk mengaut keuntungan. Saya katakan kepadanya ...
"Sekali lagi aku nampak muka engkau, kau mesti menyesal se umur hidup"
Dia dan kanak-kanak terbabit pantas menghilangkan diri. Sedar tidak atau, ramai antara kita diperbodohkan pengemis warga asing, hadir di negara ini hanya mencari jalan pintas mengaut keuntungan. Layari blog saya, mazidulakmal.blogspot.com. Banyak kisah benar lain saya kongsikan.
( Sila sebarkan emel ini )
Mazidul Akmal Sidik
Monday, June 15, 2009
Mak imah: *mengangguk* (bukannyer dier ader anak pompuan lain pun)
Mak cik 1: Lama dah balik UK?
Imah: Lama dah.. 3 tahun jugakla..
Mak cik 1: Kerja kat mane sekarang?
Imah: Kat IBM
Mak Cik 1: Ha, biler lagi? (merujuk kepada, bila kami nak buat kenduri pulak)
Imah: *senyum dan mendiamkan diri*
Mak imah: Tak lama lagi.. tapi bukan yang inila.. anak yang lagi satu tuh..
Mak cik 1: Yang ini bila pulak?
Imah: *still senyum dan mendiamkan diri*
Mak imah: Yang ni lambat lagi kot.. Yang ni lembap sikitla.. hehehehe..
Bayangkanlah.. berapa kali perbualan di atas terpaksa di ulang-ulang bila jumpa mak cik2 (or auntie2) kat kenduri..
p/s: Juga mendapat cadangan daripada mak cik2 (yg anak mereka juga adalah "segolongan" dengan imah).. untuk menganjurkan majlis mandi bunga pulak..huhuhu..
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Friday, June 5, 2009
I was a student.. doing my degree.. living in the lovely Yarrow flat with my fellow nice n hot Yarrow girls.. hahaha.. The date was during my final exam period.. I can't wait to get the 3-years torture to be over.. and feeling nervous at the same time coz I'm scared I would fail.. Getting an F for a subject was so easy back then.. hehehe..
I also.. lost my favourite member of my family on this date, 5 years ago.. The backbone and most integral part of the family.. It was the moment of change in my life, my self, and my family.. A lot of things had/ need to be changed from this date..
Time flies ha.. tick tock.. tick tock.. it's been 5 years already.. Really really missed him and missed having a father figure in my life.. huhuhu..
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
I don't know the definition of 'melanggar' and 'di langgar' that much. But from what had happenned, I was in fact 'di langgar' and bukan 'melanggar'. The funny thing is, jalan tuh punyala sunyi and tak ada kereta sangat pun.. tapi boleh ader 'accident' pulak.. huhuhu.. When I made my decision to turn right, I was so sure no car at the opposite road. I don't know where this motorcycle came (I guess this is where I was wrong and careless) from but sure as hell it should be very far because if it's soo near, I would 'melanggar' him on my front bumper or 'dilanggar' on any front/middle car body part. Just when, I finished made my turn.. gedebum!!! ader benda langgar my back-bumper. So I was 'dilanggar', OK.. hahahah.. my argument kalau nak defend diri kat court..hehehe..
Kita pun berentila kan.. nak tengok.. kot mati ker aper.. Alhamdulillah, he and the motorcycle OK. So, imah polite2 cakapla.. "I'm sorry, are u OK?". He's reply.. dalam nada yg marah n bengang..."I'm Sorry?!! OK?!! Bodoh!!! Tak nampak ker? Pekak ker? Org dah hon lama!!!".. (Banyak kali jugak perkaataan BODOH tu keluar dari mulut pak cik tuh.. tapi x sempat nak kira).. Memang rasa bersalah sangat time tuh.. 1st memang imah tak perasan the motor.. ntah dari ceruk maner datangnyer.. tengok jalan clear jer tadi.. 2nd memang tak dengar hon sebab music in the car was quite loud..
I was trying to be calm and just apologizing.. I guess that's the only thing I can do at the moment.. Bukannya boleh rewind aper yg terjadik pun.. Tapi sebab.. dier terus2 attack.. and being damn rude.. imah pun naik syeh jugakla.. and marah balik kat pak cik tuh.. "Saper yang langgar saper nih.. Tadi jalan saya tengok kosong jer.. saya lintasla.. Tak reti2 nak slow down ker kalau dah nampak dari jauh kereta melintas?..Maner plak kereta boleh berenti tengah2 jalan.. Kalau dah tau keta takder nak berenti pandai2la slowdown.. saper yg bodoh sekarang nih?.. Org dah mintak maaf.. kalau nak marah jugak pegi blahla.. bukannyer cedera pun.. mentang2 org pompuan.. sajer jer nak cari kecoh" ..huhuhu.. bertikam lidah la kami seketika.. imah pun tak berapa nak ingat aper yg imah dok merepek2 ngan pak cik tuh.. huhuhu
Memang rasa bersalah.. tapi mmg takleh pakai kalau org x tentu pasal being rude.. mmg rasa panas satu badan.. but I understand.. maybe dier pun terkejut.. hampir nak kena langgar dgn keta tuh.. Ntah2 dier dah lambat nak gi ofis ke aper.. Imah cuma bersyukur sangat2 sebab tak terlanggar dia sampai tergolek2 and membuatkan anybody tercedera.. Memang horrorla kalau yang sebaliknya terjadi..
- Ou Shian Waei, CGM, IBM Malaysia
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Inilah hasil kerja hujung minggu imah for the past 3 weekends (yang kononya boleh disiapkan dalam 5 hari nih). Seronok jugak buat benda alah nih, although imah akan cuba sedaya upaya utk tak membuat benda remeh temeh nih for my own wedding.. hahaha.. jauh lagi perjalanan my own wedding tuh.. aper2 pun, just got a confirmed news recently that my own family wedding is coming soon this year!!!! Siapakah gerangan yang akan berkawin itu? Ajim? ataupun Mak Imah? ataupun one of the cats? huhuhu..wat saspen jer...
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
We all feel the impact of higher oil prices. The average Malaysian feels the effect when he orders his favourite meal at the mamak stall because an increase in oil prices translates to an increase of everything else in the supply chain. As we move towards a renewable future, we need to shape our hydrocarbon present in ways that are more efficient, affordable and protective of the environment.
- Ou Shian Waei, CGM, IBM Malaysia
Monday, May 18, 2009
1. Copy badge "2008 Cute Blogger Award" di atas untuk diletakkan di blog anda - OK dah.
2. Link/ceritakan kembali siapa yang memberikan award ini kepada anda
Angah kusayang!!! Saper Angah ni ek? Yg penting bukan kakak No.2 imah.. hehehe.. Salah seorang kakak RizAngels yg imah kenal waktu fanatik ngan AF6 dulu.. 1st time jumpa waktu kat Melaka.. kami bukan setakat dijodohkan duduk se-apartment dan sebilik..tapi juga sekatil..wahh!!!panas..panas..panas..
Seorang yang caring.. kelakar tahap membasahkan gusi.. pendengar yg baik-citerla aper pun masalah kat dier, gerenti dia dengar.. kreatif- imah sangat suka membaca nukilan2 jiwang nyer yg sungguh menusuk kalbu..seorg 'mesin informasi bergerak'..hahaha..kira boleh 'scroll' macam2 info dari angah nih especially filem2 terbaru di pasaran..friendly.. fun.. the only person yg imah kenal boleh tepek ENO kat mate..huahuahua.. mmg best sgt dapat berkenalan dengan angah..
3. Setiap blogger mesti menyatakan 10 fakta/hobi diri sendiri sebelum memilih penerima award seterusnya.. (anda di-tag!)
- Sangat suka kucing.. Kucing tepi jalan pun imah boleh layan.. huhuhu
- Minat muzik and menyanyi.. paling suka..menyanyi dalam keta.. huahuahua..
- Tak boleh hidup tanpa TV.. punca informasi and hiburan saya..
- Like to keep things simple and not complicated.. If membuat sesuatu menjadikan hidup/keadaan lebih complicated.. imah akan choose untuk tidak melakukannya..
- Most first impression of people about me is that imah sombong or/and diorg takut/segan ngan imah. Tak taula kenapa yer..
- Seorang yg berdarah gemuruh..hehehe.. kalau kena buat presentation or buat anything depan org ramai..otomatik terus menggeletar satu badan..hahaha..
- Kali terakhir bercinta adalah tahun 2002..wah!!! 6-7 tahun gak tak mencintai dan dicintai..hati yg penuh kegersangan nih.. (terasa poyo sekejap ngan statemen last tuh..hehehe)
- Tak suka org cakap tak serupa bikin.. mmg sgt tak suka.. "cakap jer lebih, kalau x buat tak gunala!!!"
- Went to 9 different schools dari Darjah 1 - Form5 (SRK Padang Tembak, SRK Lembah Keramat, SRK Taman Melawati 1, SRK Kem Terendak, SRK Kelana Jaya 2, SRK Taman Permata, SMK Lembak Keramat, SMK Batu Lintang, SM Sains Kuching)
- Tak tahan sejuk..especially air-cond..
p/s: phew...tamat jugak.. susah jugak nak listkan 10 fakta nih..huhuhu
4. Anda perlu memilih 6 penerima award seterusnya dan menyatakan nama mereka di blog anda.Akhirnye dah menghampiri ke garisan penamat... sapa ekkk yang layak. Bukan senang nak bagi penamaan calon-calon nih sbb semua yang dikenali hebat-hebat belaka.
Gerenti grup RizAngels telah 'TnG'..huhuhu.. So calon-calon saya adalah, in no particular order..
1. Sayayangayu aka Ayu
2. Bukan Loser aka Mizzy
4. Anything is Possible aka Dikla
5. The never Ending Story aka Mama Anem
6. Dunia Oren, bukan nama sebenar
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Seperti musim2 dahulu.. konsert akhir adalah tali pengukur pencapaian budak2 AF nih..oops, tahun nih..ader mak budak sekali.. hehehe..Adakah mereka berjaya menyerlahkan transformasi diri mereka? Siapa yang paling dekat memenuhi kriteria tag-line 'transformasi' AF tahun nih? Kalau nak compare persembahan konsert2 akhir musim2 lalu, imah rasa konsert tahun nih a bit suramla (walaupun rata2 kata meriah, but I don't feel like it was..huhuhu). Tak berapa ke-ba-bom..and tak berapa tertarik-menarik-the bom!!!.. Mungkin sebab pemilihan lagu.. or sebab diorang nervous-1st time wat show kat stadium besar.. or pelajar tak berapa serasi dengan lagu baru lagi.. whatever it was..diorg dah buat sedaya upayala kan.. (I thought konsert ke-9 diorg lagi best dan menghiburkan).
Akhir konsert..Hafiz telah dinobatkan sebagai juara AF7 tahun nih. Layak ker? Berdasarkan bakat dan keupayaan dier every week.. He is the deserving winner. No doubt about it. If he's given a chance to have a more impactful song to sing, (cam lagu I believe I can fly tuh), mungkin malam tuh akan jadi lebih magical buat Hafiz.. Walaupun disindir Adlin, "vokal mantap jer tak cukup dik".. but I guess, he should present his strength over anything else first right? Kalau dengan vokal dah boleh memukau penonton.. buat aper nak susah payah tergolek2 , slide sini and sana and melompat2 atas pentas? Aper2 pun, imah tidak menidakkan keperluan creativity and arts in performance. Memang best kalau persembahan vokal yg bagus diiringi oleh memorable stage performance.
However..utk pilihan peribadi Transformasi AF7, imah tujukan buat adik ...Akim!!! It's not because imah dah minat dier from 1st konsert or bukan sbb dier org Johor k but he did lift up to the transformation tagline- kire ader peningkatan yang ketara from Week 1 till final. Utk final, he did a not bad 1st attempt utk persembahan lagu baru sendiri.. and a great performance for Bencinta (bak kater Edri Hashim.. penuh dgn aura..sampai terpercik2..hehehe). Suka ngan konsep persembahan tuh.. but vocally takleh lawan Faizal Tahir la n still got rooms for more improvements.. maybe tenaga dah terabis kat tarik2 tangan tuh kot, sampai dah takder daya nak menjerit.. huhuhu.. utk tahap beginner.. it was goodla..I don't think I can compare bdk sethn jagung ngan Faizal Tahirkan.. hehehe..
Aper2 pun Good Luckla untuk mereka.. Hope that, apart of singing, diorang tak lupa untuk terus belajar dan mempertingkatkan diri..
p/s: banyak betul rancangan realiti pertandingan nyanyi nih.. and ramai betul yang nak jadi penyanyi..huhuhu..
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
"Health is an important asset in the development of human capital in any nation. A healthy workforce is fundamental to the contribution of a well-functioning economy. Smarter healthcare is instrumented, so our health systems can automatically capture accurate, real-time information...improving and consolidating health information management and facilitating evidence-based decision-making."
Monday, May 11, 2009
Sunday, May 10, 2009
1 month past. I was still unemployed. I don't think being unemployed for a month stressed me out that much, but again, the needs of income came in a way of patience. Since my dad passed away, we (the family) need to stand in our own feet. My brother had already working and get his own source of living. My mother obviously has her own income from my father's pension which actually enough for me, her and the family stuffs (bills, foods and household stuffs). But, to a certain extendla rite?.. I can't expect my mom to buy me a new sandal.. I can't expect my mum to buy me new shirts for interviews.. I can't expect my mum to still give me RM50 everytime I want to go out with friends for movies n stuffs..This little things made me need my own income very much.
From previous experiences in UK, employment agency is the best source for fast-track employment. I follow my brother's advice 1 day, to register at Kelly Services. On the day itself, I was recommended to a job at a Healthcare Centre (the company: KLIC) as an Admin Assistant. I was told that, the owner is an expat, so I'll be perfect for the job. OK, whateverla. I just want a job. tak kisahlah, working for a mat salleh ker aper. Looking at the manager's name(Dr. Nick Boden), the fisrt image came to mind was an old-white hair-beardy-nerd looking mat salleh doctor.. hahahah.. (Dr Nick was not even close to my imagination..hehehe..he's much good looking, at least at that time la..hehehe)
I was very nervous on my first day. The job is like the usual admin job - more receptionist-admin tasks more or less. Taking phone calls, note petient's appoitnments, welcomed patients, handling payments and do daily reports. While working at the centre, I still continue on my quest for permanent employment. I later got a job offer as an Admin Executives in a logistic company at KL Sentral and with that I hand-in my resignation at the centre. However, my services are still needed at the centre (kononyela...) when then, Dr Nick counter an offer for me to work as a permanent staffs there. For my own-self development, he offers that I handle the administration and the management of the centre- in addition to my usual receptionist-admin tasks that I used to do before. Since I like to work there, I chose to stay. Plus, both offers job descriptions that are pretty much be the same, except if I stay, I don't have to move to new office and much closer to home. hehehehe..
I worked there for 1+ years. It's not a big, well-known company. But, I learned a lot while working at the centre. What I did was like a bit of everything. I was the receptionist.. I was the customer service.. I was the sales person.. I was the cashier.. I was the admin ops.. I was the credit control admin.. I was the 'accountant'.. I joined them doing marketing, bukak booth bagai..even to the part siram pokok bunga pun I'll do. I put my passion to the job and the centre. I like what they do. I love the people in the centre and the chiropractic organisation family. I like meeting the people who came for treatment. Meeting the people was one of the great experience. The good and bad. The level of people who came there. From a CEO of a company.. to a producer.. to a minister.. a governor..to a sports-person.. executives.. expats.. I met them all. To have a chance of having conversations with this kind of people that I would rarely have an opportunity of in my real life was just mind blowing. Although, sometimes, some customer will give you a 2nd grade treatment because you are behind a receptionist desk and looked down on you, it's just makes me stronger and learned more about life and people. I have to accept the fact that, not everybody will treat you nice.. They are bitches and bastrads out there and I need to experience it and see it with my own eyes.
I guess after a while.. I want to move on. No direspect to the company. It gave me the best first job experiences ever but I want to explore more and experience new challenges. My aim will be to work for an MNC company. Again, I went to recruitment agency for assistance and Manpower was the one who introduced me to IBM. Honestly, I dont know much about IT industry and IBM brand. Before the interview was the first time I know about what IBM do. It offers diverse opportunities from sales, marketing, finance and consulting positions which attracts me the most. The position I was recommended was Marketing Operations Specialist. At that time, the thing I had in my mind was on the possible opportunities for me to go for a Marketing Intelligence or Business Consulting position in future (my so-called 'dream job'). All I need is to break in into the company. Tak kisahlah under what position and I did, as a contract staff for a year. After my contract expires, I was lucky enough that the manager, had believe in me and offers me a Regular/permanent position in IBM as a Marketing Operations Specialist as well but now handling ASEAN/AP region. On 1st Aug 2008, I was finally a true IBMer and still are till present.
What I do as a Marketing Operations Specialist then? hmm.. Marketing Operations is about performance, financial management, strategic planning, marketing resource, and skills assessment and management.
What most of us do are:
1. Defining and managing systems and tools
2. Developing and implementing metrics, infrastructure, and business processes
3. Establishing and communicating best practices
4. Managing the overall marketing budget and budgeting process and
5. Identifying and deploying technology to support performance measurement and reporting
where in my current role, I'm only specialised on No. 4 function. So the job basically involving budget allocations to countries, budget performance reporting and subject matter experts on finance and accounting processes. Every quarter, I will sick to my stomach to ensure the team did not over/underspend.. huhuhu.. I'm not sure how long I will enjoy working in this role, the department or the company..just wait n see la.. where my fate will bring me after this..huhuhu.. aper2pun I'm not in the state of searching anymore which I guess is a good thing.. :)
I don't have that much experiences as a pekerja yet. But every journey I took in each job provides a whole new experience and learnings. I'm having a great journey as pekerja so far. Hopefully it will continue to be better and better..Hope I will continue to be a good pekerja and have my share of contributions to the nations.
p/s: No more Pt 4 folks.. hahahah.. Maybe coming soon.."Saya Sebagai Seorang Surirumah" plak...hehehe..tapi biler ek boleh di publish? hmmm..
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Saya Sebagai Seorang Pekerja Pt2 - From tele-marketing to 'Floor Engineer' (kata asrul..hehehe) to data entry to housekeeping..I had it all..
It was only on my 3rd semester, when I finally get a chance to earn some income. Through JobCentre, I went for a job-trial as a market researcher for a market research company. It was 6pm-10pm shift job, pays GBP6.50/hour. As long as it did not overlapped with my class timetable, I was OK with it. Since the position title was market researcher, I had the feeling that the job more or less would be about calling people and answer questionnaires or something. I guess, my early prediction was wrong. I didn't really know back then that for a profit-getter organisation, anything associate with marketing should lead to generating revenue, although if it's just a market research. So it's not a 'you-ask-questions-and-the-other-person-(potential customer(s)-answer' kind of market research task. In some point, you will need to use your charm and influencing skills to the person you call to be interested to buy/use the product or services you're researching about and make them agree for the sales person (the tele-sales people) to call them later. I was struggled at first because, I am not much of a talker but the script did helped a lot..ha ha.. Since, I was working for evening shift and it obviously dinner time, it's quite hard really to get people attention. I got a lot of yelling, cursing and angry attack because of that. The database can sometimes turn you down, where the person had made it clear they are not interested but the other staff did not mark them appropriately, the name would pop up again on your screen on random ( even worst, if at the same day itself), and the results..you'll get the yelling. The job will pretty much depends on your performance as well (you can get extra bonus of being top performer). There's obviously certain target that you need to achieve. Thing s are OK when you're new coz your target can be pretty reachable. But as time goes by, you definitely need to gear up your game and that's where the pressure came in. I don't think I had much passion on the services they're marketing and I don't really give a damn on persuading the people as well. Plus, I have so much pressure in my studies already, I don't think, I need to add more stress to my life (need to reach the target, getting people being rude to you on a day-to-day basis, etc). So, I call it quit..huhuhu..
I later, found a job early in the morning, which suit my class timetable. It was a cleaning duties in a store called TK Max. I worked 7am-9am every morning then straight-away went to class after that. I can cuci mata while cuci the floor and pick my favourite stuffs..hehehehe... The job was very easy, sweeping and moping the floor and wiping mirrors. The pays? hmm.. I think it was GBP5/hour and it was just enough for my ASDA/TESCO (groceries) expenses and shopping cravings..hehehe.. From 1 cleaning to job to another, I was recommended by fellow Malaysian students to work at UGC Cinema plak, 4hrs per shift (6am to 10am), pays GBP 5.5/hour. Since it offers longer hours, I chose to work in the weekends at first, until I finished my semester. During my dissertation writings, I extended my working days to 5 days a week although sometimes, I do volunteer to do more to cover MC staffs. Had such a blast working here, not because I enjoyed collecting pop corns, drink waste, snacks and condoms so much..but the job was like a 'treasure hunt' quest. If you're lucky, you can get all kind of 'treasures' that people left behind inside the cinema hall the day before. Umbrella, GBP1 syillings, gloves and the best treasure of all.. Handphone!!! I'm not really proud of my doings and behaviour here. hehehe..But as Abg Zaki told me, "Buat aper nak rasa bersalah. Saper soh depa tinggalkan? Kalau imah tak amik, org lain yg amik".. hahaha..Setelah mendapat sokongan moral dari orang ramai..imah kuatkan semangat utk terus mengambil aper jer benda yg imah jumpa..hehehehe..In addition to being treasure hunter at the cinema, once in a while, when the supervisor got a cleaning tender somewhere else, she would recommend me to come a long. Yeay!! Extra hours!! Extra $$$!! By this time, people already gather, that my savings are mountaining..hahaha..working everyday and on weekends as well..huhuhu.. One of her usual tender was a cleaning duties at a horse-race stadium. It was my first time went to a horse-race track and some of us did put a bet on those horses. ha ha ha. While collecting glasses and rubbish, I did get a chance to have a peek on the races and good looking socialites at the VIPs podium.. hehehehe..It was good fun..I'm loving my life as 'Floor Engineer'.. and Hygiene Specialist..hehehehe..
After finished with my dissertation, I decided to find a fulltime job instead. So my friend/classmate, Fey and I went to a recruitment agency and the first assignment I got was a temp job as Data Entry Clerk, my first office job.. hahahah.. Got better pays of course, and for once, at least no brooms or mop or cleaning detergent involved. hehehehe.. Since I know, temping job will not be forever, I searched around for permanent employment. Through, newspaper ads, I came across a lot of Business Development position in various marketing firms. The ads looks interesting - Welcome to freash-grade, thus no experience needed since training will be provided and opportunity to run your own marketing firm in 1-2 years. So, I chose 1, and booked for an appointment for an interview. The office looks great and professional. The people looks confident and well-dress as well. Everything that you would expect a marketing professional would be. After being briefed about the company, the job ladder and stuffs, I was introduced to my so called mentor of the day. He was not bad looking..hmmm.. yummy yummy.. He's doing marketing for a low-cost phone line providers and the type of marketing he's doing? Face-to-Face, Door-to-Door , House-to-House marketing. So I follow him around for a day and observe the tasks. I've always been very skeptical about this kind of job and as if reading my minds, he kept telling me to keep an open mind throughout the day. Honestly, I agree for some type of services and products and promotions, direct contact marketing like that is the most effective way. But the job was totally not for me. And thinking of security issue, wondering around alone in the city that you know very little about and go house-to-house and inviting yourself inside strangers' home. It's just not suitable for me I guess. No running marketing firm in a year for me then.. hehehe.. Since that, I ignore all similar job adverts.
After a while the searching brings me to one of my former employer again, Marriot Hotel. I was maid in Scotland again.. huhuhu.. at that time this was the only fast track employment I can easily get hold of before I can find proper job. It's just so easy..I went to their open interview and the next day you can practically start working. And it puts at least GBP700ish inside my account. Kire OKla..Just enough for everything (if you live in such moderations, of course). Obviously, I need some $$$ to continue my living. Gas and electricity bills obviously did not came cheap- (At this point, I really missing campus life (living in Yarrow), where all these utilities were covered and I don't have to worry and sleeping in coldness to save). Kalau nak tunggu permanent employment somewhere else, mati kelaparanlah saya..huhuhu..Since I already had my experiences being a housekeeper before, things were fine. I had my own floor/division and was very semangat to ensure the rooms under my care were spotless.. So semangat nak jadi housekeeping cemerlang..hahaha.. and most importantly, I like it that I can watch TV while working.. hehehe.. (sempat tgk live EPL matches lagi kekadang..hehehe)..The most challenging part through this employment was during fasting month. Lucky it was winter time. So, the break fasting time was quite early..around 4pm-ish, although, I only managed to eat hotel biscuits only..huhuhu.. Because the job was based on shift-rotation, you won't have a fix weekends day offs. Not just that, because of the unpredictable rotation, I can end up working 9 straight days (can be even more if my next break schedule on the weekends) before getting the 2 days break. I hate weekends off because it will be useless anyway. The supervisor will desperately calls you up early in the morning asking u to turn up to work to cover absent staffs. (Obviously hangover cases la..grrrr..dah tau kerja next day, lagi nak gatal2 minum sampai mabuk..).
I'm not sure at one point, how long I should work that hard before getting the job I really want and suit the qualification. It was uncertain to me at that time, of when, I would get my 'office' job. Not a data entry job. Not tele-sales or tele-marketing job. But a real job. A professional position. Life was fun there. And I am comfortable there. But I guess, the pepatah saying, "hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri, lebih baik di negeri sendiri" is true. After my graduation day, I bin my plan to stay and work in the UK and decided to just go back home (Malaysia) and being close to family, where I should belong. I guessed, things can be much easier for me back home and I might be very much in demand..I think so..
How's my life as a 'pekerja' in Malaysia, then? To be continued...hehehehe..
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
I don't remember how at last, I got the job at Dalmahoy Marriot Hotel and Country Club, as a Housekeeping Associates. ha ha ha.. Nama jawatan jer cam gempak, k. Since imah memang terkenal sebagai penyepah kat rumah, imah bekerja sebagai housekeeper and buat kerja2 mengemas adalah sesuatu yang sebenarnya kelakar buat mak imah waktu tuh.. Tak kisah ler.. saper yang nak free free kasik GBP4.50/hour? Mungkin, tanpa sedar, imah telah diturunkan secara turun temurun dari mak untuk pandai buat kerja2 mengemas nih, jadi, kira imah boleh pukul jugakla buat kerja2 housekeeping nih...huhuhu..(nampaknyer, berdasarkan working experience nih, mak kena upah lebih kurang RM25/hour utk imah buat kerja2 housekeeping nih kat umah sendiri.. hehehe). Imah kerja on weekends jer time tuh and in several public/bank holidays, kalau diorang perlu extra staffs. I do remember this job a lot because, I remember that it was tough. I was required to super clean 15 rooms (bukan setakat asal nampak bersih and kemas jer, kena free from habuk, rambut and debu2 and cermin kena super licin dan bersinar2) and memang nightmare kalau sumer adalah check-out rooms. Faham2 jela tahap sampah yang harus dikerjakan.. huhuhu.. Memang penat sangat-sangat buat kerja nih (especially part kena bagun awal),tak termasuk jari jemari yang luka dan cedera kena bahan pencuci and angkat mengangkat tilam. Tapi biler dah lama and sedikit berpengalaman, pandaila jugak menipu sikit-sikit untuk mempercepatkan kerja dan mengurangkan tenaga..hahahah.. Kalau nak ikut panduan kerja 100%, alamat memang takleh la nak siap kerja on time.. Jadi, apa2 benda pun dalam bilik hotel especially gelas, janganlah korang pandai2 terus guna tanpa basuh dulu. Entah aper2 kain diorg guna wat lap.. huhuhuhu..
My lucky break finally arrived, when 1 day, my supervisor told me to come at 2pm on the next day. Moving forward, I'll work on night-shift and it should be interesting, katanya Yeay!!! I told myself. At least I don't have to wake up early in the morning.. hehehe.. The next day, I was briefed on what would I be doing.. still need to clean rooms, but now reduced to 5 rooms only!!! yeeha.. Rasa nak melompat terkinja2 cam monyet time tuh jugak.. (Tapi kekadang kena buat lebih la.. cover mereka2 yg masih ketinggalan waktu shift pagi tuh.. huhuhu).. Then, come 6pm, I need to do a 'turn-down' service for the Executive Suites and VIP guests.. Bukanlah buat service aper2 pun..Cuma kena gi tutup2 langsir, bukak kan lampu, sediakan katil untuk diorg terus ready untuk tido, letak coklat and letak fresh towels.. senang sangat2.. Lebih menyeronokkan, hari pertama Imah kerna nighjt shift, supervisor kasik tau yang Robbie William was staying at the hotel and we'll go to do housekeeping at his room... Robbie William???!! tarik nafas sekejap.. Imah takdela minat sangat kat dia, tapi nak dapat masuk bilik artis nih!! Macam2 perasaan timbul time tuh, excited, nervous, bangga pun ader..tak kirala, walaupun untuk cuci jamban dier jer.. heheheh..
I was brought to a different side of the hotel, where I've never been before. Rupa-rupanya diorang ader lagi advance punyer suites. 1 room leh kira cam 1 apartmentla, ader ruang katil, TV area, beberapa bilik air. Katil pun kirea super size la. Tak sama cam bilik2 yg slalu imah dok cuci selama nih. And these rooms got padang golf nyer view with classic-english design. The buiding itself macam a tower castle, with long windows and flowery curtains with scallops. Rasa cam katak bawah tempurung jer time tuh. Tak tau selok belok tempat kerja sendiri.. huhuhu..
How's my experience cuci bilik Robbie William? Biasa jer.. Ketuk pintu bilik cam biasa..Knock Knock Knock.."Housekeeping!!!", I shout (cuma kali nih.. buat yg lebih seksi daripada biasala kan..ceh.. hahahah). A guy openned the door for us and welcomed us in. We went in, and straight away imah dah boleh nampak Robbie William kat dalam, (I'm just facing his back, sebab dier dok mengadap TV, nampak cam tengah baca something on piece of papers). So as a professional, (professional la kononnyer nih) imah cuma dok fokus dengan kerja2 housekeeping yang perlu dilakukan jer. Cuma sekali sekala jela dok jeling2 sikit ke arah Robbie William tuh..takdela bercakap2 or hello2 each other or mintak autograph ker..hehehehe..Mungkin sebab ader supervisor teman sekali. Kenala behave sikit..Dalam hati cam, ishh, kacau daun jer pak cik nih..
Memang best la dapat buat night shift nih.. Tak memenatkan. Habis kerja kul 8 malam.. Takdela lewat sangat pun. Cuma boring je la, sorang2 kat ofis, jaga telepon, kot kot orang ader request anything. Cuma ader 1 insiden jela yang imah tak dapat nak lupa. Tiba-tiba, ader kes org mabuk buat kecoh pulak. Ishhh.. belum pukul 8 dah mabuk. Kebetulan time tuh supervisor belum balik lagi, so kami pergila tengok.. aper benda kes nyer. Sekali masuk bilik.. then tengok bilik air.. mak aih.. muntah bersepah-sepah kat lantai, dinding sumer. Imah rasa cam nak menyumbang lagi muntah kat situ.. Kire cam blurr jugakla, memikirkan camner nak kena bersihkan muntah2 tuh.. Last last, to my rescue supervisor tuh yg volunteer tolong bersihkan.. phewww.. Nasib baik dapat supervisor yang baik hati..
Alhamdulillah, imah tak pernahla menghadapi kesukaran or masalah waktu buat kerja nih. Kira kes kena kacau ngan customers pun kire tak dela.. Sekejap jer pun rasanyer. Tapi, imah selalu wonder, macam mana pekerja2 lain tuh boleh survive buat kerja housekeeping nih for so many years. (sebab waktu imah kerja tuh, majoriti pekerja adalah golongan mak cik2 yg mungkin jugak sudah mencapai tahap nenek, yang dah bekerja kat situ for 20+ years..huhuhuhu). Imah kerja ntah berapa bulan, part time jer plak tuh, terasa sangat penat lelah nyer.
p/s: Imah masih simpan uniform and name tag waktu pakai masa kerja kat sini dulu.. sentimental value.. hehehehe
Monday, April 27, 2009
- Ou Shian Waei, CGM, IBM Malaysia
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Most dreams contain messages that serve to teach us something about ourselves. Unfortunately many a times we forget what we dream about as we go about our daily routine. With recurring dreams, the message may be so important and/or powerful that it just will not go away. The frequent repetition of such dreams forces you to pay attention and confront the dream. The dream is trying desperately to tell you something. Such dreams are often nightmarish or frightening in their content, which also helps you to take notice and pay attention to them.
Recurring dreams are quite common and are often triggered by a certain life situation or a problem that keeps coming back again and again. These dreams may recur daily, once a week, or once a month, but whatever the frequency, there is little variation in the dream content itself. It usually points to a personal weakness, fear, or your inability to cope with something in your life - past or present. The repetitive patterns in your dream can reveal some of the most valuable information on yourself. It may point to a conflict, situation or matter in your waking life that remains unresolved or unsettled. Or some urgent underlying message in your unconscious is demanding to be understood.
Lucid Dream - a dream state in which one is conscious enough to recognize that one is in the dream state and which stays in one's memory
Lucid dreams occurs when you realize you are dreaming in the middle of your dream. "Wait a second. This is only a dream!" Most dreamers wake themselves up once they realize that they are only dreaming. Other dreamers have cultivated the skill to remain in the lucid state of dreaming. They become an active participant in their dream, make decisions in their dreams and influence the dream's outcome without awakening
Lucidity can open endless doors to self-knowledge, exploration, and fulfillment, but it is not purely in the domain of "new-age science". Lucid dreaming is a scientifically accepted phenomenon which has been proven to exist countless times in sleep laboratories, and whose potentials are only beginning to be explored.
Dream About Being Chased
Dreams about being chased often stem from feelings of anxiety in your waking life. The way we as humans respond to anxiety and pressure in real life is typically manifested as a chase dream. Running is an instinctive response to physical threats in our environment. Often in dream scenarios, you are being pursued by an attacker (can be human, could be an animal) that wants to hurt, or possibly kill you. Dreams about being chased may represent your way of coping with fears, stress or various situations in your waking life. Instead of confronting your problems, you are running away from them and avoiding them.
The pursuer or attacker who is chasing you in your dream may also represent a part of yourself. Your own feelings of anger, jealousy, fear, and possibly love, can assume the appearance of threatening figure. You may be projecting these feelings onto the unknown chaser. Next time you have a chase dream, turn around and confront your pursuer. Ask them why they are chasing you.
A more direct analysis of chase dreams is the fear of being attacked. Such dreams are more common among women than men, who may feel physically vulnerable in the urban environment. These dreams are inspired by fears of violence and sexual assault in which we are so over-exposed from the media. The violence that the media portrays magnifies our fears and how at risk we all are.
Dream About Flying
More than a third of the dreaming population reports having had at least one dream about flying. And, if you have one, you're very likely to have more. Your chance of having a flying dream doubles if you are a lucid dreamer (you are able to become awake and aware as you dream).
Flying dreams fall under a category of dreams where you become aware that you are dreaming, known as lucid dreaming. Many dreamers have described the ability to fly in their dreams as an exhilarating, joyful, and liberating experience. There are 3 feelings commonly associated with dreams about flying:
1.) Flying with easy and enjoying the scenery and landscape below. This usually suggests that you are on top of a particular situation and you have risen above something.
2.) You are having difficulty staying in flight, and obstacles are in your way (i.e. power lines, trees, mountains). These barriers can represent a particular obstacle that is standing in your way in your waking life.
3.) You are afraid whilst you are flying, and you may feel that you are flying too high. If this happens when you are flying, chances are you are afraid of challenges and of success.In all respects, dreams about flying are extremely vivid, and again are considered a lucid dream. For lucid dreams to take place, your body must be in a state of R.E.M which is a deep sleep. There are sleep aids available to you that can help your body get into this state, and also just give you a great sleep.
Dreams in which you are falling are quite common in the dream world. Contrary to popular belief, you will not die if you do not wake up before you hit the ground during your fall.
Like most dream themes, falling dreams are an indication of insecurities, anxieties and instabilities in your own life. Overwhelming feelings and out of control situations in your waking life can cause these dreams and this may reflect the way you feel in a certain relationship or your work environment.
According to the Freudian theory, falling dreams indicate that you are contemplating giving into a sexual urge or impulse, and you may be lacking indiscretion.
Falling dreams can also often reflect a sense of failure or inferiority in some circumstance or situation. It may be the fear of failing in your job/school, loss of status, or failure in love. You feel shameful and lack a sense of pride. You are unable to keep up with the status quo or that you don't measure up.
Dreaming that you are completely or partially naked is very common. Nudity symbolizes a variety of things depending on your real life situation.
This is probably the most common of all dreams, as everyone can recall having these dreams. Naked Dreams usually represent two things. The first is that the dreamer wants freedom and nothing else. The second symbolizes the fear of being exposed or vulnerable, and it is very natural to feel ashamed.
Many times, when you realize that you are naked in your dream, no one else seems to notice. Everyone else in the dream is going about their business without giving a second look at your nakedness. This implies that your fears are unfounded; no one will notice except you. You may be magnifying the situation and making an issue of nothing. On the other hand, such dreams may mean your desire (or failure) to get noticed.
Dream about Tooth Falling out
Dreams about losing our teeth symbolize the loss of childhood innocence. These dreams often occur at times of transition from one life stage to the next and can be a message that an important milestone is occurring and urging you to face the inevitable. Your dream may be a message that an important milestone is occurring and urging you to face the inevitable.
We need our teeth to feed our bodies. Eating is necessary to maintain the body's growth, energy and health. In this context, losing teeth may be associated with insecurity about your livelihood. Perhaps you are stuck in a "dead-end" job and fear for your future. Perhaps you are growing older and are becoming anxious about how much time you have left to work and make an income. You may be getting "long in the tooth" and fear losing your sexual attractiveness. Dreaming of false teeth symbolizes concern about your self-image. We all must deal with the process of growing older. Find fun ways to re-invent yourself incorporating all the wisdom and experience that you have gained.
Since many of the dreams that are associated with your teeth falling out can be unpleasant, anxiety can hit you when you are trying to sleep. The result can be a restless night of a lot of tossing and turning, or in more serous cases, insomnia.
Dream about Death
Dreams about death can be one of many things. Right off the bat, most people think that a dream about death is a bad thing, but this is not necessarily true.
This dream is very common and often means that something is ending in one's life such as a long family battle or a battle with a sickness. Things that have been dragging along in your life such as the coming to an end of a career could finally be ending with a dream about death. Other things it could possibly be would be an ending to a relationship. In most cases the relationship or career is making the person unhappy or not a good situation, so the dream is a good thing.Generally these dreams are a start to something new and fresh. The symbolism of death is most always a positive thing. There are a few cases when it really means that death is going to happen, but usually it means the rebirth of something better. It could also mean that it could be the end of a person’s worries. The worries will die in a sense. The cause of the worry will cease to exist. Another possible meaning could be of prosperity and longevity.
p/s: Always got the dream about being chased..huhuhu..
Source: MeaningofDreams.Net, http://www.meaning-of-dreams.net